In humans, around 300,000 eggs live inside a female body facing
puberty. That number decreases to around 70,000 by the time she
I have spent the last twenty–two years wishing my eggs away, cursing them, month by month as they float down the drain. I have spent the last ten years telling people I won’t be having kids, that I don’t want them. Breaking my mother and grandmother’s wishes, returning worn onesies.
But now I’m thinking a lot about sacrifices.
Nicole McCarthy is an experimental writer and artist based outside of Tacoma. Her work has appeared in PANK, The Offing, Redivider, Glass: a Journal of Poetry, a Best American Experimental Writing Anthology, and others. Her work has also been performed and encountered as projection installation pieces throughout the Puget Sound. A SUMMONING is her first nonfiction collection, published by Heavy Feather Review. Find her at nicolemccarthypoet.com.
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